Waiting for something is always difficult. Even when we were kids it was hard to wait for certain things – food, christmas, all these fun things. We always had to wait.
But this is not the wait I wanted to talk about. It kinda connects to the hope I posted a few days ago. Sometimes you have to wait for something, even though it will never happen. Doesn’t make sense, right? But when does it ever make sense if it’s about love? Waiting and hoping go hand in hand and the desperation can be even greater.
You wait because you hope that waiting will lead to something again. In todays terms ( 2022 ) we would say ‘Damn man, you are pretty high on copium to wait for something that won’t ever happen anyway’. And you might be correct, who knows. But I think that every person that decides to go through with this struggle will learn that it’s better to wait for something that might never happen instead of being without any hope. Because at least with waiting you have some kind of purpose…Some kind of thing? To look forward to. It is something you can actively do, more or less. That makes even less sense now that I write it but eh…
Being stuck with a situation you can’t solve on your own and which has 0% chance of being resolved by that one person who can solve it for you leads you to desperate measures, I guess. One of them is the waiting for something that most likely will never happen. I know there is the never say never thing, but in most cases that’s not true. But as long as the waiting keeps you sane there is nothing wrong with doing it. At least in my opinion.
So that’s what I will do. I already had to this for several years and then for another year again. I’ll just wait and hope. And if it takes another several years or even longer…Well, fuck me then, I guess.